"Hey I'm topless...I'm Totally topless!!!"

I know I am always late to the party.......I am Finally watching Bridesmaids for the first time this evening, BEYOND funny!!!!
I sooo relate to Annie, in so many ways and in soo many moments!!!!!!

"...I'm life Annie! I'm life and I'm gonna bite you in the ass!!! Now, turn over!!!!"

"I'm such a fuck up...."
"NO!!!...You are more beautiful than Cinderella, you smell like pine needles and you have a face like sunshine!!!!... "

oh yeah.... and
I guess you can add a dash of Megan too!!!
"...Where's my hungry BEAR???!??! You wanna bite of my sandwich..?...it's filled with meats and cheeses?..."
TOO GOOD!!!!

i think i need to find me a sweet, FUNNY, Irish cop that wants me to cook for him...
or ...

...gotta go wash my hair or bake a cake!!!

p.s. I will NEVER like wilson phillips!!! NEVER ugh!!!

puss puss

my thought for tonight...

on that note...
I cancelled my plans for tonight, making vodka & pineapple drinks, a loooong hot bath, PIZZA,  Cece AND Bride's Maids!!!!

{ i have plans for tomorrow nite & thurs night so I can sit this one out after last night...}

Have a GREAT nite, ALL ...
i need to rest!

I think I f*cked up....

...by pushing the button a second time.
....greedy i was....

...eh?!??  not sure...
it also could be that when things are calm  ~ or mellow ~ THAT makes me nervous... which in retro.. makes me nervous......
ughhhh

worm hole anyone?...Anyone??!??!?
what am I saying??????
 ...gods only KNOW where or what plane I will find my sorry ass on ,if i test their patience much more today.....
as I have been given much....and did not always deserve it....

I need to find the peace I carry within me when I am alone , when I am with another....

off to practise what I preach.....

WOW!!!

That button REALLY works!!!!

hmmmm.... should we push it again ????
and see what happens tomorrow.... oh I mean TODAY!!!
Ha!

F*ck it!!!!
  let's do it, To It!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

....now, off to bed...

THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

that was amazing...
and
just what I NEEDED...

seriously...
                    Thank YOU!!

thursday....

be kind to me...please?

what is after black...?????

should I even ask???

as usual, I cannot help myself....

P.s..........

  du vet vem du är ...

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i'm out!!!

Hump day......

Wrap it up people (and teddy bears!!!!)...

...what can I say...
                     my mind is racing and I have nothing positive to say for my thoughts so I revert to laughter as there is nothing more besides exercises and pouring another glass of wine that will remedy my immediate mind state...
Wish me luck...

ta ta for now ...

P.S.
и к моим российским читателям....
Одобрительное восклицание Медведеву за отметив, что Mitt Romney вне от мысли о России сегодня... я не согласен со всем, что Россия делает и сделал, но я мог бы сказать то же самое моей страны... кто «Мы» судить или превратить вашу прекрасную страну в «буги человек»... я не... Я не...   forgive my very RAW Russian...

 Good Night...

so far today....

                          Sucks!!!!

but I will find a way to get through the rest of the week....

ughhh....

Ralph Waldo Emerson

"Another sort of false prayers are our regrets.  Discontent is the want of the self-reliance: it is infirmity of will..."

...good night...

anyone...? 2.0

Anyone...?

i have decided that it has NOTHING to do with having a good vocabulary....

{......cut to 11:27pm & 3 glasses of wine later.....hence the "2.0"}

..let me explain myself...

i want something that I KNOW in the long run, will lead no where...
too complicated....
and
                   I know better...

but
HE feels so good...
WE feel so good...
makes ME feel so good....
                       when I am in his hands, his arms...... quand il est en moi...

....BUT....
it is not enough...
...and i know it...

no matter...

HOW  a-m-a-z-i-n-g WE feel when we fit together, just so .....

... it has been FOREVER since i felt that way with another....

which is why it is so hard to walk away....
but
I will...
 and
know i should do it sooner rather than later ....

pour mon propre bien, si rien d'autre

off pour terminer mon vin

Bonne nuit

I am a Sapiosexual...

 I learned this word just last night  but I have been practicing it my whole life....

which is why, THIS is so true....

Going out with...

friends,
                          to laugh and dance...
                                                       and drink
                                   & dance
                                             and...
                                                       laugh some more!!!!

                                          hope you all get to do the same
   ...as I am pretty sure....we could all use some...
                                          laughs and love
                               with fellow humans {especially the ones I like} !!!!

Ciao!!!

GOOD night.....

i hope to get some sleep....

it's all I "got" for right now...

since you...

i'm naked...

and now....

I am out...!!!!!!

now, off to polish off, the bottle of pino I bought to celebrate the sale of jewelry....
and on a personal note:
ease the sting of my standards {in my personal life}...

for now....

I'll do the rest of my crunches/leg lifts {yes, tipsy buuuuuuuut @ least I will finish my work out....}

and .....
maybe .....
 just maybe, i need to get back out there.................
 again....      ....oh boy!!!


we shall see what the coming days/weekend have to offer ......
so far life .....
                                has NOT failed to be interesting, if nothing else....

....i think it is called free falling...anyway that is what it feels like..
...hunh?
 XOOXO

the Goal for the next few days....

nite nite.....

               i miss cardiff...
                                                 my real home....

                                             enough said....??!??!?...

crazy....

but I just can't do it...


i want to ...

                     but i just can't...
                                                    even though...
.... he feels sooo good
but for how long...? not long enough...

there are more fish in the sea...
ones I do not have to sacrifice certain...ethos/pathos... things....

 I guess I just NEED to become a better fisherwoman!!!!

We learn wisdom from failure much more than from success. We often discover what will do, by finding out what will not do; and probably he who never made a mistake never made a discovery.

- Samuel Smiles

change in plans...

and I need to be okay with it!....

note to self: PATIENCE!!!!!
remember....me....???????

and

 i NEED to also be okay with the possibility that....

 if it's not right, it just ain't right.


we shall see how that works out for me....

i think i can, i think i can...


oh and happy St. Patty's day ...  ?? I am not Irish but I have nuthin' against 'em ...nice rear ends now that I think about it...lol

Ciao for now!!

the calm before the storm....

Hope Y'all
have a GREAT weekend planned too,
mine starts
                        NOW!!!!

some mornings are THE Best....

this was one of them...

happy thursday ...AND there is STILL good "stuff" to look forward to....

sending out good vibes and MANY smiles!!!!

{because i know this too, shall pass...i know enough to know, I don't want to know much more .... i know when that happens, i will no longer be able to escape into our world we create when we are together BUT for now~ i will enjoy MY encounters and NOT limit my options, as I have done so many times in the past...}

sometimes....

I wish I could POKE out my third eye...

   there are times where i see too much
                  and most of the time, I do NOT have the capacity to make sense of 
                        or at times understand
                                                or even attempt to use  Allof what I am shown/dream
                                                   which at times,
                               makes me feel as if it is more of a curse...
                                                             than a gift...

here's to me finding a way to blinding that EYE for a few ...
 i need a break from my mind!!!!! which means lots of exercising and a few other home remedies i have figured out over the years...

tomorrow will be BETTER
 I know this because I will get a long awaited massage
 and
hopefully tonight
 I will get to lay with...
if only to get lost in his touch, the words he whispers in my ear and the taste of him on my lips...
   yeah that's right I can get cheesy too when I am smitten!!!!

Puss Puss!!!

buckle in...

It's gonna be a weird next couple of days...
 I feel it, deep in my bones...

Good Luck to ALL of US!!!!!

we will need it.....

Je sais que c'est irréaliste...

good nite!

my soul...

needs a talkin' to....

cut me some slack...

at least for a few more nights...

   pretty please...

For it was not into my ear you whispered,

 but into my heart.

It was not my lips you kissed, but my soul.

Judy Garland

it's too early for this...

                                                           but it is soooo true!

epiphany

           

JSR.. you have been haunting my dreams...
I have worked VERY hard to let go of the negative energy...


I will NEVER forget YOU  but I have let YOU go....
it was the only way I could hold on to the good.
and there was much that was good between us...
but the pain & the weight of your choices are too great to bare.

My one true Hope for YOU, actually the both of US,
is to find the peace of mind we both deserve.

much love forever and always...

always.

but I'm grown.....

                            Happy Friday to ALL of us!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

again I am reminded...

my life is not nearly as shitty as some....

and

let us ALL find strength and peace {of mind & Body}

some day soon...

and then

Pay that forward!!!!!!!!!!!!!

                                                          deal.....? DEAL!!!!!!

music will set us free....

i am not GIVING up
on changing my shitty MOOD and attitude!!!!!!!!!!!

Word for today.....

             PATIENCE

                                  I have ALWAYS lacked the amount of....

                                                                     and

                                                      NEED to find more...

                                                                     and

                                                               BE more.......                      

                                                               Patient.

                                            Patient with MYSELF........

                                    Patient with OTHERS....

     Ideally, finding Patience with-in my MIND so that I may feel it in my SOUL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

please help me....

I cannot do anymore MORE push ups tonight....

please.................................
                               let sleep take me!!

exercising

...does my mind and....

.
                                                                    ... my Body a lot of GOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

a few more leg lifts & crunches and I am done for toNIGHT!!!

{....and YES, I am trying to work off some "extra" energy as I have YOU --- your hands, lips, etc....on my mind....}

Here is to a better tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ciao!

directed to the shitty mood I am in....

take THAT {grumpy me} !!!!!

I know, I KNOW....

 I am supposed to be positive
But.....

this is my MAIN thought for TODAY.........

nous SONT BAISÉ.....!!!

sons mieux en français, non ?

xxoox ;)

still LOVE....

nighty night.....

Clear sky, CLEAR MIND......

seriously....

this quote just keeps coming into my head ... Nothing MORE TRUE really

"It's not what you don't know that'll hurt you, but what you know that ain't so." -- Mark Twain

like I have said before,
             reality sucks but it is better than building things upon what "ain't SO" !!!!!!

word!

See you in the dark....

  now...

now...now, Now....

 NOW.....NOWWWWWWW!!!!!

back too....

Getting what i NEED instead of what i WANT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


to be continued....

it REALLY is Monday...

... Ugghhhhhhh ...

....

wish me luck in trying to sleep...

.....this too shall pass...
                                                 Right?!??!??!....

who am I kidding....

it more like this...

it SUCKS to be a thinking, feeling and decent human being sometimes...


more push ups maybe.....?

dream....

                  begin again....

                                                     to dream.....  Again.

3/3/2012

           reality is Reality...
No matter how amazing one's imagination might be,

            What is real, IS real...

       no matter how much we may want it to be...
                  different.

like Mark Twain said...
      "It's not what you don't know that'll hurt you, but what you know that ain't so."

now off to lick my wounds with some exercises ...as a tight ass & stomach always make me feel better about myself...

bought a good bottle of wine with my very last pittance...
some cheese... crackers...
and a good movie.

ciao for now!

one day, SOON....

life may not be so complicated for me...



i can do nothing but hold on to what I KNOW is true
I will keep trying...
over and over
and
over again...


what is worth having is always worth the struggle ...

puss puss

I think I may need a little more...

Luck...

Date tonight..
I'm not so goo at these...
but at least we sorta know each other tres petite...
..all I'm sayin' is...
               .........let's hope I don't Fuck this UP...!!?!?!?!?!? 

"His was a great sin who first invented consciousness. Let us lose it for a few hours."     F. Scott Fitzgerald

smooches...

well...

it has already been an eventful day...

but all is good.

... I will try and be productive, even though I have only ONE "thing" ... actually ONE person on my mind...
lots of smiling...
it is ridiculous how much he makes me smile...
stupid ...makes me feel stupid, but in a good way!!

I can only hope that this weekend will be filled with more....

again...

trying not to jinx myself...

as I could go on and on...

WISH me LUCK and I will return the FAVOR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

smiles!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so nice to have this in mind this morning....

*** when I feel like i will NOT "jinx" it by gabbing about "it" ... 

I will... I promise, but right now I want to drink in the experience,

feel it ...

 live it ...

BEFORE

 i gab about it!!!

I hope we ALL have a GREAT day and NIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Adios for now