And this is about all i'm gonna say about THAT....

What twisted people we are.
How simple we seem,
or at least pretend to be in front of others,
and
how twisted we are
deep down.

~ Roberto Bolaño, 2666 

This goes out To.....

 

“What the river was showing her now was that she could flow beyond the brokenness, redeem herself, and fuse once more.”

~ Ursula Hegi

 

just sayin'

What I am telling myself today to get to TOMORROW...

“I found God in myself
And I love her
I loved her fiercely.”
~ Ntozake Shange

Thank YOU for This Morning

I REALLY Needed that...

MANY Smiles your way!!

i feel like shit...

“There’s no one thing that’s true. It’s all true.”

~ Ernest Hemingway, For Whom the Bell Tolls

ALL is NOT lost...

BUT MUCH still, clearly...
Needs to be found.

...Feeling a little undone TODAY

“Let’s face it. We’re undone by each other. And if we’re not, we’re missing something. If this seems so clearly the case with grief, it is only because it was already the case with desire. One does not always stay intact. It may be that one wants to, or does, but it may also be that despite one’s best efforts, one is undone, in the face of the other, by the touch, by the scent, be the feel, by the prospect of the touch, by the memory of the feel.”

~ Judith Butler, Undoing Gender

Simply Put...

 

I am an Idiot.


no one to call...

What SHE said...

“My mother taught me this trick, If you repeat something over and over again, it loses it’s meaning. Our lives, she said, are the same way. You watch the sunset too often, and it just becomes 6pm. You make the same mistake over and over, you’ll stop calling it a mistake. If you just wake up, wake up, wake up, wake up, wake up one day you’ll forget why. Nothing is forever, she said.”

~ Phil Kaye, excerpt from “Repetition”

If you want it....



MORE Truth !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

“Everything changes when you start to emit your own frequency rather than absorbing the frequencies around you, when you start imprinting your intent on the universe rather than receiving an imprint from existence.”

~ Barbara Marciniak 

YOU really do have me on soooo many levels...

MANY thanks for all of the smiles you put on my face

MANY thanks INDEED.

Puss PUSS

“I love you as certain dark things are to be loved,
in secret, between the shadow and the soul.”

~ Pablo Neruda, 100 Love Sonnets

I am, Are YOU ????

"Joan of Arc came back as a little girl in Japan, and her father told her to stop listening to her imaginary friends.

Elvis was born again in a small village in Sudan, he died hungry, age 9, never knowing what a guitar was.

Michelangelo was drafted into the military at age 18 in Korea, he painted his face black with shoe polish and learned to kill.

Jackson Pollock got told to stop making a mess, somewhere in Russia.

Hemingway, to this day, writes DVD instruction manuals somewhere in China. He’s an old man on a factory line. You wouldn’t recognise him.

Gandhi was born to a wealthy stockbroker in New York. He never forgave the world after his father threw himself from his office window, on the 21st floor.

And everyone, somewhere, is someone, if we only give them a chance."

~ Iain S. Thomas, I Wrote This For You

TRUTH

“In many shamanic societies, if you came to a medicine person complaining of being disheartened, dispirited, or depressed, they would ask one of four questions: When did you stop dancing? When did you stop singing? When did you stop being enchanted by stories? When did you stop finding comfort in the sweet territory of silence?”

 ~ Gabrielle Roth

“I have decided to stick with love. Hate is too great a burden to bear.”

- Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr.

CHECK!!!!
no wonder my LIFE has gotten so much Happier, Fuller and WORTH it ALL!!! Here is to dancing, singing, laughing & enjoying the inside of ME!!

have a FABULOUS DAY Y'ALL

Happy MLK Day and Congrats to Pres Obama for 4 MORE years!!!

Cheers!

MUST remember....

“Perhaps when we find ourselves wanting everything, it is because we are dangerously close to wanting nothing.”

~Sylvia Plath

 

“Our lives disconnect and reconnect, we move on, and later we may again touch one another, again bounce away. This is the felt shape of a human life, neither simply linear nor wholly disjunctive nor endlessly bifurcating, but rather this bouncey-castle sequence of bumpings-into and tumblings-apart.”

~ Salman Rushdie, The Ground Beneath Her Feet

 

 

You say It's YOUR Birthday!!!!

Well it's MY Birthday TOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

And I feel LOVED for being me...

 

It's the BEST Birthday Present EVER!!!

 

wishing ALL of YOU a GREAT weekend

 

Puss PUSS Y'all!!

Do I dare ....?

"Do you want me to tell you something really subversive? Love is everything it’s cracked up to be. That’s why people are so cynical about it. It really is worth fighting for, being brave for, risking everything for. And the trouble is, if you don’t risk anything, you risk even more."      

~ Erica Jong

many, Many THANKS life

"The free soul is rare, but you know it when you see it -

basically because you feel good,

very good,

when you are near or with them."

~ Charles Bukowski

...some how life is surrounding me with these wonderful people & what is even better ~ they are showing me so much...about them, the world that i have taken for granted for many years & about little ol'ME

 I feel like a VERY lucky girl these days...

MANY THANKS indeed!

LIFE pulling me by my hair....again

“My hope, daughter, is that
what you love doesn’t come to kill you,
eye by eye, ear by ear, bone by radiant bone.”

~ Julianna Baggott


{and I am actually enjoying it...}

yep...

and I am at work

                                             {le sigh}

thank YOU for making me feel this way....

“Don’t ask what the world needs. Ask what makes you come alive, and go do it. Because what the world needs is people who have come alive.”

~ Howard Thurman

is it 5:30Pm YET?????

P.S.

ONE of the many reasons THIS day is WAY better than yesterday...

even though I fucked up last Saturday....
HE STILL likes me...
{insert doe eyes & a BIG smile}

BECAUSE i was honest ...

I am good & naughty ALL at the same time but the difference is NOW i know when to be what ;)
feels good to be wanted for the WHOLE package...BOTH the good and the bad.

I am one lucky girl, only problem is I cannot get him or his touch out of my head...

ahhhh ....{les sigh}..... to have such problems

Ciao for now

Today, i am hoping is a better day....

 or else....

already puttin' it into FULL effect for 2013!!!

Well I got what I wanted....

Saturday night's Goal was to Dance & Laugh with a dash of naughty...

well This was a success...
in fact maybe a bit too much of a SUCCESS.  {but Gods was it FUN}

I wish I could just "vomit" all that I have in my head & heart but alas now, is not the time & last night was too soon to process what was in MY head as it was still being filled....

UGH

Well I CAN say this for me... I have grown up. Cause I was honest when it was HARD to be .... and when it could have been sooo easy to just not say a thing...even though I hurt someone's feelings & made my life a bit uncomfortable & possibly a little quiter...
I am a better person for being honest.

Phew!

will blogg at you later
gotta go!

 

“Dwell on the beauty of life.

Watch the stars, and see yourself running with them.”

 

~ Marcus Aurelius

I think I can, I think I Can.... No I KNOW I CAN!!!!!!!!!!

“Compassion hurts. When you feel connected to everything, you also feel responsible for everything. And you cannot turn away. Your destiny is bound with the destinies of others. You must either learn to carry the Universe or be crushed by it. You must grow strong enough to love the world, yet empty enough to sit down at the same table with its worst horrors.”

~ Andrew Boy

2013

“For last year’s words belong to last year’s language
And next year’s words await another voice.
And to make an end is to make a beginning.”

 ~ T.S. Eliot

 

2012 in a nut shell....

I'm a better human for it.....and there ain't no turning back!!!
 

Already being put to the test....

I gotta walk the walk if I'm gonna talk the talk...

I had such a GREAT time last night with Friends, Music, Dancing and Libations!!!!

I had an even better time when I got home....
I feel VERY blessed at the moment in that respect. {le sigh}

Don... DON- DON DAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

{Cut to slow mow POWER body blow to MY gut...}

SOMETIMES FAMILY CAN BE SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO difficult to deal with.....

I will hold my nose & do what needs to be done, THIS last time.....
but after this I AM DONE...Put a FORK in me DONE.

both the Old & the New Gods know I have tried...
See,in order to HEAL....
I had to Let go; hence the reason I CANNOT go backwards with YOU...

I made a pact with myself, after letting go this last Year (2012), that 2013 and more specifically, My Future ~ ONLY has room for REAL LOVE and the RESPECT that can ONLY be felt from that kind of love....

After all that has happened at this point.....

If there is no Forward for us, there is no need for an US.