but.....

 i REALLY want to do this:

p.s. all that know me know it's REALLY Coke-a-Cola that I will be drinking ... 

And on that note.... 

THIS is what I HAVE been doing all day:

Note to Self:

“Despite what you’ve read, your sadness is not beautiful. No one will see you in the bookstore, curled up with your Bukowski, and want to save you. 

Stop waiting
for a salvation that will not come from the grey-eyed boy looking for an annotated copy of Shakespeare,
for an end to your sadness in Keats.
 He coughed up his lungs at 25, and flowery words cannot conceal a life barely lived. 


Your life is fragile, just beginning, teetering on the violent edge of the world.

 
Your sadness will bury you alive, and you are the only one who can shovel your way out with hardened hands and ragged fingernails, bleeding your despair into the unforgiving earth.
Darling, you see, no heroes are coming for you. 

Grab your sword, and don your own armor.”

Word!

I guess some promises are TOO hard to keep...

when Lifetime

                              and 

The End of Time....

turn out to encompass a wee bit MORE than you once envisioned & are willing to sacrifice for... 

Sincerely, 

The men you have "loved"

P.S.  No one evades Karma. 

"Women are like tea bags, you will never know how strong they are until they are in Hot water"

~ Eleanor Roosevelt 

What you find after the YOLO high wears off...

“So the universe is not quite as you thought it was. You’d better rearrange your beliefs, then. 
Because you certainly can’t rearrange the universe."

~ Isaac Asimov 

For a friend ....

“There are people you need to leave behind, 
They just dirty up your mouth,
 They don’t value your treasure.  
You fall down, you kiss up, you love them. It’s not enough. 

They’re nothing special and you’re such a gift. 

If you had no magic here you’d be just like everyone else. 

Imagine the tragedy.

You must change your life. 

You are never ready.

Love is like crying, like writing, like dying. 

You have to do it alone.
I know it’s tragic to be tender.
 
I know it’s dangerous to be kind. 

I know it’s vicious to care.
Listen to me.
I know what’s going to happen to you. 
You don’t need a window, you need a fire escape. 

You’ll need a skylight to get where you’re going. 

I can’t tell you where.”

Nicole Blackman, “You Are Never Ready" 

Story of my life....

Still have hopes/ dreams/ wishes for THIS type of Rest ....

Bob & i are hoping for a positive week

Bring 'em out, BRING 'EM OUT ....

“All things truly wicked start from innocence.”

Ernest Hemingway

quack, QUACK

Jack Kerouac

The beauty of things must be that they end.

Ernest Hemingway

" the most painful this is losing yourself in the process of loving someone too much, and forgetting that you are special, too."

“if 
the ocean 
can calm itself, 
so can you.

we 
are both 
salt water 
mixed 
with 
air.”

meditation, nayyirah  

Word UP!!!

My lover Hunter's VERY wise words...

" Yesterday's weirdness is tomorrow's reason WHY."

Keep on keep in' on!

FOUND some....

Allen Stone~

“Don’t be afraid, cause the sun’s still warm in the shade.”

In between worlds at the moment...

“The unknown is an abstraction; the known, a desert; but what is half-known, half-seen, is the perfect breeding ground for desire and hallucination.”

                                           ~ Juan José Saer

i NEED MORE of these two things in my LIFE

A.S.A.P!!!

I WILL find a NEW way to think about the world...

“Everything in the world displeases me: but, 

above all, 

my displeasure in everything displeases me.”

~ Friedrich Nietzsche

Pretenders

I can't stand them!!!!

Remember, YOU don't care.....

-- we never existed, remember?

on the journey....

My OTHER lover....

Bukowski...

“Stop insisting on clearing your head 

— 

clear your fucking heart instead.”

E.E. Cummings

“Anybody can learn to think, or believe, or know, but not a single human being can be taught to feel… the moment you feel, you’re nobody-but-yourself - in a world which is doing its best, night and day, to make you everybody else - means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight, and never stop fighting.”

.....