Pretty sure YOU know this is for YOU...

Everyone else, have a GREAT weekend!

I didn't get it at the time

Cause i WAS  married to him for 7+ years...

But HE really is an asshole.

Truly has no reflection 

Almost, wish I was the ass... 

Might be a bit easier to swallow  

But I'm

 NOT gagging on that AGAIN!

But as always, this too... shall pass.
✌️🙏 💫

What I look like while packing the last of my things tonight....

A

Answer: Being a Good Daughter.....

I get it now.

Looking forward to finding this chest...

I KNOW it's out there.

Ode to a bear ...

I stand back in your audience, kind Sir 🐻...


When ALL logic fails:
I take bath....

peace OUT!

Today was a GOOD Day....

My last Bukouski quote for TOnight

“you boys can keep your virgins 
give me hot old women in high heels 
with asses that forgot to get old.” 

~ Charles Bukowski, Love is a Dog from Hell

Ummmm.... Is it bad that I'd like to know where these kinda men hang out?!?!?

Don't answer that.

This is what happens when I start reading again....

Yep, Bukowski quotes....

“Some lose all mind and become soul,insane.
some lose all soul and become mind, intellectual.
some lose both and become accepted” 

this one....

“...in that drunken place
you would
like to hand your heart to her
and say
touch it
but then
give it back.”
― The People Look Like Flowers at Last

But this is what sparked it all tonight...

“unless it comes out of
your soul like a rocket,
unless being still would
drive you to madness or
suicide or murder,
don't do it.
unless the sun inside you is
burning your gut,
don't do it.

when it is truly time,
and if you have been chosen,
it will do it by
itself and it will keep on doing it
until you die or it dies in you.

there is no other way.

and there never was."

..... I read this back to myself , and said OUT Loud, "No wonder I'm single."

We'll talk later....

Have a good Monday!

My REAL inspiration...

1. 

I WILL find a way....

Infuse COLOR & more happiness into this next chapter of my life.

Can you tell......

I HATE packing.....

......i know, white girl problems.

💋

the OG version, i feel, sings to ME ...

Not gonna do it... I'm NOT gonna shit on myself!!!!

"....Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.

Be gentle with yourself. 

You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here.And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace,
and whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.

It is a beautiful world. Strive to be happy."

                                     

-an excerpt of some AMAZING insight/writing by Max Ehrmann

Is it weird that im kinda okay with that....

Don't mind MY MIND......

Seriously.....

The BEST way we can honor this day....

For this reason and OOHH so many others....

                lets NOT Bomb Syria

                                                              Peace!!!

Truth at 4:59am

“Anything is a waste of time unless you are fucking well or creating well or getting well or looming toward a kind of phantom-love-happiness.”

~ Charles Bukowski

6th of September

tonight's leg lift music....

Don't judge me...  😏✌

Soon, very soon

“I’m sick of watching the shirts with sleeves hang lonesome in my closet, I want to put them on and let you take them off. I want to wear the kinds of things that don’t slip off in an instant, the kinds of things with zippers and buttons and layers and depth. I want to feel soft, I want the comfort of a comforter, I want to spend Saturdays in bed with all the windows open.
I want to spend Sundays in cars with the windows open, too, driving to fields where apples and pumpkins grow. I want to taste the thick of fall in my mouth, in pies and brews and hot coffee. I want confusion over whether or not to wear a jacket and confusion over what hue that tree was three weeks ago, I want everything to change so that I can feel like there’s reason to be alert, like there’s a reason to wake up again.”

~ Stephanie Georgopulos, “I’m Sick Of Summer” 

Update on my chicken shit post....

Please note: I am no longer a chicken shit; now,  just a reject or in the friend zone (not sure which is worse)!!! I get it guys it's hard out there for a Pimp...

But I do feel so much better for trying...

Who knows what's around the corner~

baby steps Melissa, Baby Steps for getting back in the game 🙌

Happy Tuesday All!! 😘

“You will burn and you will burn out; 

you will be healed and come back again.”

~ Fyodor Dostoyevsky, The Brothers Karamazov 

I am a

chicken shit.

From one bear to another.....

                             

truth is this bear is a pussy cause i don't have the balls to ask for real...