Shhhhhhhh

I will let you in on a little {BIG} secret of mine ... even though my NEW goal is to be POSITIVE & Happy deep down inside this is the Monster I have been fighting all my life:

ya see now what I am up against...what runs in my brain on a constant loop...

I cannot tell you how many times I have apologized for just existing/breathing...to myself ... to others.

I felt unworthy of unconditional love/Kindness/connection/REAL Happiness WITH another human.

But

i have FINALLY come to the conclusion that

this must be conquered

not just neatly folded & tucked away...

NOW!!!

by ME

life is too short for MY Bullshit to hold ME back from TRUE Happiness Anymore!!!!!

PHEW! .... confession OVER!