It’s much easier to not know things sometimes. Things change and friends leave. And life doesn’t stop for anybody. I wanted to laugh. Or maybe get mad. Or maybe shrug at how strange everybody was, especially me. I think the idea is that every person has to live for his or her own life and than make the choice to share it with other people. You can’t just sit their and put everybody’s lives ahead of yours and think that counts as love. You just can’t. You have to do things. I’m going to do what I want to do. I’m going to be who I really am. And I’m going to figure out what that is. And we could all sit around and wonder and feel bad about each other and blame a lot of people for what they did or didn’t do or what they didn’t know. I don’t know. I guess there could always be someone to blame. It’s just different. Maybe it’s good to put things in perspective, but sometimes, I think that the only perspective is to really be there. Because it’s okay to feel things. I was really there. And that was enough to make me feel infinite. I feel infinite. ~ Stephen Chbosky, The Perks of Being a Wallflower
....This is what I have been doing for the last year....
feeling again....
Doing things again.
I'm not gonna lie - at times it's been more than hard, in fact its been some of the scariest shit I've dealt with
but I also get it...
i am feeling my pulse again...in a good way.
I certainly have not obtained ~ much less acquired all that i am in pursuit of
but i get it.
I get that I have to hang tuff during the Holidays,
the "lulls" in life ...
the lack of drama in what has been a VERY crazy life is "Okay!"
that the not so huge moments in life but ~Happy
just simply happy moments in life
add up to a bigger Mosaic of a contentment & understanding that i long for ....
thought I had been denied
and now KNOW is STILL possible!!!
Am I mouse or woman!?!?!?
I declare Woman...who is accepting of mice 😉
And now I'll share a little diddy from my youth, a song I used to sing in the shower like a rockstar!!! after a run or a good work out & STILL do ...
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