Cheers Y'ALL

 

 

morning....

tomorrow nite will be Brilliant!!!

 

“I’m not going to change the way I look or the way I feel to conform to anything. I’ve always been a freak.

So I’ve been a freak all my life and I have to live with that, you know. I’m one of those people.”

 

~  John Lennon

 

 

The advice I was given for my New Year....

"You're only in danger should you second-guess yourself. Know your power.

Trust it, use it and live it."

 

WORD!
 

with OUT light.... with out YOU

Night NIGHT for REAL........................................

I can steal back mine.....................

Right?!??!??!?

MANY smiles...

I miss home no matter HOW Good life is....

did I say I'm just a girl.....?????

nighty night...

Shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.......

XOOXOOX



seriously....

 

“I have wanted to kill myself a hundred times, but somehow I am still in love with life.”

~ Voltaire

 

 

Time to leave now, get out of this room, go somewhere, anywhere; sharpen this feeling of happiness and freedom, stretch your limbs, fill your eyes, be awake, wider awake, vividly awake in every sense and every pore.

~ Stefan Zweig, The Post-Office Girl

 

“It’s so much darker when a light goes out than it would have been if it had never shone.”
~ John Steinbeck, The Winter of Our Discontent


Words, {S}he decided, were inadequate at best, impossible at worst. They meant too many things. Or they meant nothing at all.

~ Patricia A. McKillip

 

....

Update...

I have a few minutes left at work so I will update y'all in a less cryptic manner than usual.

These last 2 weeks have been WEIRD to say the least...
BOTH GOOD & semi Bad but weird none the less.

I am about to get a whole week (10days) off ~ PAID!!!!! can I say that again PAID! just like the good ol days when I had a good job years ago... ahhh somethings - no matter how long its been - STILL feel good.. RIGHT; let's just say getting "PAID" days off from work is one of them!

I have been able to keep most of my shit contained - for me - for it being the Holidays! as I am NOT a big FAN ... and next month are Birthdays....birthdays I would rather forget etc etc... nope I won't dewll there NO SIR!

I bought my Beach House, The Xx & Louis C.K. tickets which makes me EVEN more excited about the NEW YEAR!!!  this has been a dozy but in MANY MANY Good ways... I bellied up to many a bar (both literally & figuratively) and I think I made a lot of progress on ME- my thoughts, feelings - the WHOLE fucking 9 yards Man!!!! I Wasn't pleased with everything I learned about me & "LIFE" but ALL lessons well learned & necessary to go to the next plane..
 I see that NOW.

fuck to be honest I can tell now "i" was holding myself back because I was scared!... Scared to be a better person - scared to learn/fix/accept many parts of me.. instead of others;
 I lived LIFE.

I am sooo much more appreciative of my days and nights,
the people that make me happy
and
that I make happy as well...
cause I CAN do that,
 i have found...
and I can do it without giving away too much of me (like in the past)

So tonight
I go dance
 with friends
to ring in the Mayan New Year!!

Tomorrow
I go See my Tattoo Artist to plan out my last ink...
finishing an old piece, adding the next stage to another & last but NOT Least adding a NEW one for "ME"

YES, just for ME

 i really cannot wait I will have work done next week when I am off!!! Whoo Hooooo!
 I have not had this kind of need to get inked since I was "knee high to a grass hopper" (actually more like 9yrs) but as i have always said if you do not long for a tatt for at least a year than you probably should not get it!!!!

Then Sat night out with the girls to dance & drink our asses off!
Life is Good in the Hood at the moment - actually has been for a while

 I am VERY happy
I can See,
Feel 
&
 ENJOY it !!!!!

OHHHHH
 and tonight,
 hopfully I get to See/Feel/Play with my "Oz" ...
ahhh YES,

 the REALLY good stuff!







“There is nothing noble in being superior to your fellow man; true nobility is being superior to your former self.”

~ Ernest Hemingway

“Often when you think you’re at the end of something, you’re at the beginning of something else.”

~ Fred Rogers
 

SUCCESS on the "getting a BREAK" from myself this past weekend...

I’m restless. Things are calling me away. My hair is being pulled by the stars again.

~ Anaïs Nin, Fire

I like living. I have sometimes been wildly, despairingly, acutely miserable, racked with sorrow; but through it all I still know quite certainly that just to be alive is a grand thing.

~ Agatha Christie

My heart Bleeds for those in CT @ Sandy Elementry School...

The weekend is coming....

Thank goodness

cause i NEED to 

LAUGH & have some FUN

it's been a "strange" week {& last weekend} to say the least

i need a BREAK from ME...

with that, Let's Call it a Day....

 

tomorrow is 12/12/12

it's gotta bring with it something to break up this monotony that is my life at the moment....

 



YEP, That about sums it ALL up.....

“You’ll find as you go through life that great depth and smoldering sensuality don’t always win.”
~ Woody Allen

Weird Weekend...

stayed INSIDE {my head} waaaaaaay too much

note to self -

DO NOT do THAT again, 

THIS weekend!!!

Wine in hand & bathtub bound.....

Thinking of you ...

                                                                         Waiting on you...
                                                                                    C u soon
                                  

The last post was my HEART talking ...

 THIS one is my head talking ...





I thought it would NEVER happen again ...

BUT

Pigs CAN Fly!!?!!?!?!!!?!

Who NEEDS wings....Right?!?!?!?

Lesson LEARNED

... at least I think

“When you’re accustomed to loneliness, you become in tune with the rhythms of yourself and your own mind — because you always have to answer yourself at the end of the day, to be alone with your thoughts. You’ll also know how important self-love and reliance is, to love yourself before you love someone else, but I think the universality of loneliness teaches us what that love is. To be lonely is to be human, to feel pain, to be forced to know yourself — and the universality of it binds us.

 Love is embracing that universality and surrendering to it.”

~ Nico Lang, When You’re Lonely, You’re Not Alone

Sincerely, Mushy Me...

 a smile washes over ALL of me

when i think about you...

MANY thanks

for simply that.

XOXOXO,

Sincerely,

mushy me

“You are the music while the music lasts.”

~ T.S. Elliot

“There is nothing more truly artistic than to love people.”

~ Vincent van Gogh

U KILLED IT last night/this morning

THAT was JUST what I NEEDED!!!!

MANY kisses & hugs your way

I’m an acquired taste…

not for everybody, but for the ones that get me…

I will give you all of me, all the time.

~ Jhene Aiko

~ Jim Morrison

2 Thoughts for this morning after a CRAZY but FUN Weekend...

 

“Many people lose the small joys in the hope for the big happiness.”
~ Pearl S. Buck

“I like it when a flower or a little tuft of grass grows through a crack in the concrete.

It’s so fuckin’ heroic.” 

~ George Carlin