I'll admit it...

I am REALLY scared.

i hate feeling scared.

One of EACH, Please!?!??!?

So This is what MY wonderful Man has been saying to me to keep me in MY Skin...

BUT

inside I REALLY feel like this:

you said it Mr. Wells...

I HAVE to find the STRENGTH!!!

seriously LOST

Note to SELF:

This time I ...

REALLY

FUCKED UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

.....no one but myself 
&
 NO ONE to BLAME but MYSelf.

"Now the standard cure for one who is sunk is to consider those in actual destitution or physical suffering—this is an all-weather beatitude for gloom in general and fairly salutary day-time advice for everyone. But at three o’clock in the morning, a forgotten package has the same tragic importance as a death sentence, and the cure doesn’t work—and in a real dark night of the soul it is always three o’clock in the morning, day after day."

~ F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Crack-Up

 

MY NEW reality for a while I fear...

gods help me

 

I am: embarrassed,scared, feel weak

and 

full of fear
 

I am LOST.

but i will try to stay focused
 on the far... far away voice, i hear in my head

 "this too shall pass..."
 

just NOT SOON enough,
if you ask ME

NOT SOON ENOUGH

A lesson Well LEARNED

“Far too many people are looking for the right person, instead of trying to be the right person.”

~ Gloria Steinem

i'm still a work in progress

but

Ahhhhhh how far I have come

and

how wonderful it is to finally be in a place

where I am actually look forward to what tomorrow brings

Sending MANY GOOD vibes out to the universe!!!!

Tonight's Festivities....

To a Friend far away and in NEED of kind thoughts...

"In the end, only three things matter: how much you loved, how gently you lived, and how gracefully you let go of things not meant for you.”
                        ~ Buddhist Saying

for you "Jules"...

XOXO

tonight's activities....

in T-minus 79mins from NOW!!!!

YOU give me...

                                     canNOT wait to feel your hands ALL over me, again tonight...

i hate to admit it but I literally cannot get enough of you

SHHHHHhhhhh, DON'T TELL!!!

sending many smiles to the Universe, as I am outta here in 3 mins!!!

puss PUSS Y'all

a post for a friend...

these things are just not "happening" to you...

                 But I DO wish you Luck tomorrow.
I know it will be a difficult day for you and there after for a while...

Hang in there

Thank YOU for being such a BRILLIANT ray of light in my life right now...

“Let someone love you just the way you are – as flawed as you might be, as unattractive as you sometimes feel, and as unaccomplished as you think you are. To believe that you must hide all the parts of you that are broken, out of fear that someone else is incapable of loving what is less than perfect, is to believe that sunlight is incapable of entering a broken window and illuminating a dark room.”

                                                     ~ Marc Hack

On Tonight's Docket !!!!!

going to See Louis CK

he is taping his HBO special & we have tickets to his last performance tonight!!!

CANNOT Wait

and the BEST part is I get to go with "Jules"

 

One HAPPY Clam, I am!!!

 

CHEERS!!!!

This Weekend's agenda...

 

Can't WAIT!!!!

 

Hope all of YOU go out and shake your booties TOO!!!

 

CHEERS!!!!

You know which one YOU are ....

thank YOU for this morning

was EXACTLY what i NEEDED

muwah!!!

Yup ...

Lately, these days...

Thank YOU!!!

Where i WISH i was right NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

 

but I have the next best thing...

YOU 

xoxOXOXOxox 

HBD

“ Man with all his noble qualities,

with sympathy which feels for the most debased,
with benevolence which extends not only to other men but to the humblest living creature,

with his god-like intellect
 which has penetrated into the movements and constitution of the solar system —

with all these exalted powers —

Man still bears in his bodily frame the indelible stamp of his lowly origin. ”

~ _{Charles Darwin; (Born 204 years ago today, February 12, 1809)}

P.S. happy birthday to Abe Lincoln too ...

I am ....

 

A

 

  VERY

 

 

           LUCKY GIRL!!!!!!

xooxoxooxoxooxooxoxooxooxoxooxoxo

YOU literally make me smile from the inside out

 

MORE thanks than I can express for YOU!!!

XOOXOOXOOX

 

 

 

what I WISH i was doing today with U, instead of being at work...

no words just songs, at the moment ...

He was SUCH a Dick but Ohhhh how RIGHT his words were/are ......

“Human speech is like a cracked kettle on which we tap crude rhythms for bears to dance to, while we long to make music that will melt the stars.”
                        ~ Gustave Flaubert, Madame Bovary

Because after work, I canNOT get to my bottle of wine quick enough...

 

“If nature has made you a giver, your hands are born open, and so is your heart. And though there may be times when your hands are empty, your heart is always full, and you can give things out of that.”

~ Frances Burnett

 

HAPPY Birthday BOB

It REALLY is a hard life when you wake up from the dream, Huh?

I have a lot of empathy for what u are going through...

been there done that!

and because of that--

I am truly Sorry for your worries at this time.

hang in there

40 Mins until I get to BLOW this Popsicle Stand to be with YOU!!!!

Phew!!!

Meh... Cars?!??!??!!

What can I say...
Once a rebel always a REBEL!

Remember....REVISED as of 21/02/2013

You cannot live outside of the Box 

without paying a heavy price at the worst of times...

I warned you a while ago...

 ...... there is NO there, THERE.....

                                          for EITHER of you.

take care of you

Im OUTTA HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Any WHERE?????

Yep... This is ME Today!!!!!

do you see the look on my face?!??!???
priceless.

OOhhh wait I for got one....

I can always count on Charles to explain it BEST....

MY 2 MAIN thoughts for today BESIDES REALLY needing to get...

LAID!!!

1.

2.                     “Knowing that you’re crazy doesn’t make the crazy things stop happening.”
                          ~ Mark Vonnegut, The Eden Express: A Memoir of Insanity


Yes - I am clearly GRUMPY and disjointed in my thoughts today....UGH Im OVER myself already and it isn't even NOON yet!!! Wish me luck ?!??!??!?!!

See YOU...

Tonight.

I am sooo in NEED of calling out YOUR name...

puss PUSS!!!