THIS is what I am day dreaming about RIGHT NOW!!!

uhmmmm

 

YES, PLEASE!!!



i remember....

Kiss My ARSE Tuesday!!!!

What a wonderful thought....

"Probably the closest things to perfection are the huge absolutely empty holes that astronomers have recently discovered in space. If there’s nothing there, how can anything go wrong?"
                                                       ~ Richard Brautigan, An Unfortunate Woman

“I know too much and not enough.”

~ Allen Ginsberg

MUST remember....

i hate Mondays but I LOVE me some....

What is on REPEAT for my soul...

Ropa till Sverige

 

aren't we ALL jones'in...

going out to see XX and chromatics at the Hollywood Bowl
if all goes right

Will make this summer epic

CHEERs


What They said...

“Sometimes I’ll be talking to someone, and I’ll be like ‘Yeah, I’ve been really lonely lately’ and they’ll be like ‘Well we should hang out!’ and I’m like ‘No, that’s not what I meant. That’s not what I meant at all.”
                                  ~ John Mulaney 

“We are so used to releasing words, we don’t know what to do with them if they stay. No matter how many times we let them go, they come back. The words that matter always stay.”
                                 ~ David Levithan, The Realms of Possibility

yep think i am nestling in for the night...
BEADING it is!

ciao!

“There are something like 18 billion cells in the brain alone. There are no two brains alike; there are no two hands alike; there are no two human beings alike. You can take your instructions and your guidance from others, but you must find your own path.”

                        ~ Joseph Campbell, Pathways to Bliss

that's IT

Nobody can save you but yourself — and you’re worth saving. It’s a war not easily won, but if anything is worth winning — this is it.

                                   ~ Charles Bukowski

“What I needed was a connection with someone. Someone real. I felt that need in the marrow of my bones, in my pancreas, in my kneecaps. I did not need an endless sea of flesh. What I needed was to be loved.”                                   
                                                       ~ Benedict Smith    

ONLY music will...

 

 

I could not STOP myself from posting...

crying laughing ...

 

ohhh and for my Boardwalk Empire Friends:

pretty sure "Cunt Punt" will be used on the regular THIS weekend!!

 

Still crying laughing ...

Ummmmm.....yeah,

Pretty sure if you follow my Blog, I have been Guilty of this ~ more than a few times

Oops!


so happy it is MY Friday as it has been a "rough" week to say the least...
but I have a great Show to go to tonight
and then some dancing with one of my FINE friends is what is on the docket for Friday night!

so Brace yourself for possibly more "libation-infused" posts :)

what I tuck myself into bed with for tonight....

 

 

good night and sweet dreams to us all.

"She was one of those stars, a bright dot in blackness, without home, without a companion, in eternal cold and silence."

                                               

   ~ Maxine Hong Kingston, The Woman Warrior

the LAST I'll speak of it...

 

  

 

"More and more I found myself at a loss for words and didn’t want to hear other people talking either. Their conversations seemed false and empty. I preferred to look at the sea, which said nothing and never made you feel alone."

~ Paula McLain

 

"Every time you are tempted to react in the same old way, ask if you want to be a prisoner of the past or a pioneer of the future."

                                            ~ Deepak Chopra

Happy EARTH Day Y'all!!!!

The Goal for tonight.....

to DANCE,

DANCE

DANCE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
 

It's a Hunter day...

"Freedom was yesterday in this country. It's value has been discontinued. The only freedom we truly crave today is freedom from Dumbness. Nothing else matters." - Hunter S. Thompson
"Kingdom of Fear"

I leave you with this...

 

Meoooooow!!!

i'm offically OUT, now!!!!

good morning...

lol

but what is REALLY good night pour moi!

xoxo

Nechte nás všechny uzdravíme

Much Love sent out to the universe cause MUCH healing NEEDS to be done

XOXOXOOX

Shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.....

" What she really craved was a connection. That feeling you got when you knew you were supposed to be with someone. "
                                                  
                                                ~  J. Sterling, In Dreams



What every Girl longs to hear:

i'm out mon amis...

Here's to having a Fun Weekend!!!



“She has so many knots in her hair because we are desperate
in our fucking. Maybe desperate is not the right word.
Think: necessary. Think: éclat. Think the opposite
of mediocre and then continue to think that until you grow bored.
She is always digging, I am always grabbing, and there is
probably something else missing here. When I think about
her past, I think about space and how both of them make
no sense to me. They are both so big, and I have never slept
in a house that large. I get tired just thinking about starting
another poem. I write in my journal I could talk about orgasms
all day. It is hard to be happy without beer. I am working
on my stereotypes. My favorite sitcoms are the ones with the pretty
wives, the heavy husbands who wear uniforms to work.
Is anyone else concerned about the space around their cuticles?
If marijuana is a gateway drug, then what is a blowjob?
It is hard to be happy when the best part of your day is agreeing
with the ambivalent weather. I like it when married women
don’t look at me. Sturdy beds are never overrated.
I’ve wanted to use this line for months: Where did all of the wedding
rings come from? If people paid to read my poems, I would pay
someone to write me better poems. There is only one woman
I want to fuck, and that scares the shit out of me.”

~ Gregory Sherl

My last THREE thoughts, that I will share ~ tonight....

"The human body essentially recreates itself every six months. Nearly every cell of hair and skin and bone dies and another is directed to its former place. You are not who you were last November."
                                       ~ Donald Miller

“I’ve always envied people who sleep easily. Their brains must be cleaner, the floorboards of the skull well swept, all the little monsters closed up in a steamer trunk at the foot of the bed.”

~ "City Of Thieves" - David Benioff

 

It IS Good Sh*t!!!!!!!!!!

 

“There are possibilities for me, certainly, but under what stone do they lie?”

~ Franz Kafka, Diaries

Thank YOU!!!!

All is not completely "fixed" but well on its way...

THANK YOU Universe for the LOVE

i promise NOT to waste it, this time!!!

 

XOXOXO

Phew!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

 

my heart bleeds...

For All, even for those that plotted/carried it out ...
HOW unhappy and full with hate must someone BE to do such an act & think it is RIGHT, much less warranted?

I fear the answers we are soon to get

 

but LIGHT is always better than darkness,
always.

 

Wish ME luck for tomorrow ....

 

 

Cause I'm gonna NEED it

AND

as many good vibes as the world can muster sent to me tomorrow,

Pretty PLEASE?!?!??



"The good outnumber you, and we always will."

Officially OUT-----

good night

Exactly what I NEEDED to hear so I thought I'd share with you...............

"Falling in love with yourself is as beautiful as any experience of love is. It’s learning to laugh at your awkward tendencies and smile at all your quirky habits. It’s learning to be grateful for the many sides you have – confident, crazy, shy, sexy, nerdy, angry, weird, and all the rest of them. It is realizing that you’re one of a kind and that you deserve to give the world the best person you can be. Falling in love with yourself is being happy in your life and knowing that in this one moment in time, you’re beautiful simply because you are you."
                                                                     ~  Kovie Biakolo, Falling In Love With Yourself

This weekend was fun but....

“I am a restlessness inside a stillness inside a restlessness.”

~ Dodie Smith

 

 

I know I can't figure ME out either today...

 

 

it's a MUSIC Saturday!!!!!!!!!!!!!

now off to ejoy the sun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Good Day Y'all

 

here's hoping tonight will be as fun as the last...

 

mske it a good DAY & Night!!!

Music makes EVERYTHING better!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Www.Coachella.com!

Ode to Vermin Villa.....

hate to say it but it is true....

no seriously .....

can't help it....

cause I think it IS too late for US, now...........

now off to a warm shower & a BIG glass of wine.

did Franz just answer my last question for me..................????

"Don’t bend;

don’t water it down;

don’t try to make it logical;

don’t edit your own soul according to the fashion. Rather,

follow your most intense obsessions mercilessly.”

 

~ Franz Kafka

Does this count for Life too, Ernie...?

 

“The first draft of anything is shit.”

 ~ Ernest Hemingway

 

 

hmmmm....

 

“‘Perhaps they were right in putting love into books,’ he thought quietly. ‘Perhaps it could not live anywhere else.’”

~  William Faulkner, Light in August

 

“The heart is extremely fertile soil. Whatever is planted there, good or bad, will take root and grow.”

~ Abdul Nasir Jangda

Seriously.....

i am cursed in the "tryin' to be cool" dept!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

okay Cliff Notes version:

deal is i broke up with my boyfriend 2 weeks ago...
it sucks most especially because I am going through some "shite" right now so it is even harder not to have someone who cares beside me/inside me...
and he was good
good with distracting me in the best of ways and also had the ability to be up lifting -- most of the time ~ which is the reason why we had been dating for the last 6+mos...
but that is not the point of THIS post...
the point of this post is ----
Because, I do NOT know how to use my iPHONE -- i just accidentally called him
some how
...mutha fucka
~ soooooooooooooooooooooooooo did not mean to
 and now of course
he thinks I am calling him randomly-
FAIL --- major fail
YES, I was bummed that he had not called, not touched base since we called it quits 2 wks ago
but
FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKK
i sooo did not mean to call nor can i do anything about it NOW cause it will look just as bad...
YES i wanted to talk to him
BUT
i was trying to play it cool - play it off that it did not matter to me that we had not talked much less broke it off...
HENCE the NOT contacting him even though I wanted to
seriously
Universe,  WHAT THE F*CK ARE YOU TRYING TO TELL ME!?!??!??!?
clearly I need to be spoon fed!

im out

i lied, here are 2 more

“There is only one corner of the universe you can be certain of improving, and that is your own self. So you have to begin there, not outside, not on other people. That comes afterwards, when you have worked on your own corner.”
                                                                                                            ~ Aldous Huxley

"We are our own dragons as well as our own heroes, and we have to rescue ourselves from ourselves."
                                                                                      ~ Tom Robbins, Still Life with Woodpecker

nite
           nite

FINAL note to self...for today

I am outta here in 44minutes & counting..

No seriously-

I am counting!!!

 

 

Best Advice I have been given in a long LONG time...

Yep its Wednesday ....

 

 

 

...but last night was pretty Fukin GREAT!!! ...
music wise that is

I guess a girl can't have EVERYTHING she wants...

ALL at once?!??!?

 

said no girl EVER!!

Here's to letting my "HUMAN" flag fly tonight!!!

 

“You are allowed to feel messed up and inside out. It doesn’t mean you’re defective - it just means you’re human.”

 

~  David Mitchell

And tonight I will be solving them with.....

 

Some Beach House-

Sold OUT Show tonight

&

 mamma's got tickets!!!

 

I will be tired at work tomorrow

but it will be soooo worth it!

 

such a small price to pay for such greatness

 

ohhh work go faster!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

"Unexpected intrusions of beauty.  

That is what life is."

~  Saul Bellow

haven't i?

not afraid... and I guess, I am STILL stupid enough to be in pursuit of:

 

 

 

seeing these guys Tuesday nite!!!

thank the music GODS! & then Polica on the 15th

 

xoxooWORLD!?!??!??!!!!!

 

kiss MY ass Bad Attitude!!!!

maybe I need to switch camps

 

SHE still makes this girl STAND at attention

 

along with Phantogram, Polica (which  i get to see on Monday the 15th)...

 

But Beach House is tomorrow ....

 

 

have NOT been a very happy girl but

MUSIC will change all of that

this i KNOW.

 {and my jewelery making}
 

this i know...

"She did not need much, wanted very little. A kind word, sincerity, fresh air, clean water, a garden, kisses, books to read, sheltering arms, a cozy bed, and to love and be loved in return."

peace.

And on THAT note...

"I deserve passion.

 I deserve to be loved - in every way.

I deserve a man who’ll give his whole heart,

not the part he isn’t using at the moment." 

~ Loretta Chase, Silk Is For Seduction

men
want to fix you
save you
or fuck you
I can’t be fixed
and I don’t care to be saved.
~ Jeanann Verlee," men "


 

 cause i still WANT this:
 

“Find someone who will tremble for your touch, someone whose fingers are a poem.”
~Janet Fitch



 

FUCK,
i think i just need to get laid....
 

now off to read my tarot cards...
 

"Leaving is not enough. You must stay gone. Train your heart like a dog. Change the locks even on the house he’s never visited. You lucky, lucky girl. You have an apartment just your size. A bathtub full of tea. A heart the size of Arizona, but not nearly so arid. Don’t wish away your cracked past, your crooked toes, your problems are papier mache puppets you made or bought because the vendor at the market was so compelling you just had to have them. You had to have him. And you did. And now you pull down the bridge between your houses, you make him call before he visits, you take a lover for granted, you take a lover who looks at you like maybe you are magic. Make the first bottle you consume in this place a relic. Place it on whatever altar you fashion with a knife and five cranberries. Don’t lose too much weight. Stupid girls are always trying to disappear as revenge. And you are not stupid. You loved a man with more hands than a parade of beggars, and here you stand. Heart like a four-poster bed. Heart like a canvas. Heart leaking something so strong they can smell it in the street."

~ Frida Kahlo to Marty McConnell

"her"

 

“People only ask questions when they’re ready to hear the answers.”

~ John Irving, "Cider House Rules"

“You have to find the right distance between people. Too close, and they overwhelm you, too far and they abandon you.”

 

~ Hanif Kureishi

 

Last one ...

 

and I'm not gonna...

A Blast from the Past ....

 

 and of Course....

 

just sorta wish it ALL wasn't STILL so TRUE!!!!