it's the deep end of the pool tonight kids...

NOT!!!!!!!!!!!

disclaimer:

pls note empty wine bottle....
                                 
        me finishing my exercises because i think & write better after i exert/expend
                    energy...Entropy, it's REAL  Mutha fukaaaaaaassssssszzzzzz!!!!!!


okay, okay I promised you deep thoughts... and i had them, I swear I did...
when I began to type this post, I had amazing thoughts ...
when I was showering, I was thinking about what I would be writing about tonight on my blog...
as I do my BEST thinking in the shower I must say,
and the Gods know,
i have oh so much to say but so ohhhhh so much of it ,
does NOT need to be heard .... {or blogged}

yes that is right,
some of us Americans are self deprecating,
semi-humble {at times...}
and I realize how much luckier than most, I am -- even on my worst days...
hence the need to express that my post for tonight is not just me, "bitching to bitch"  as most Americans do...
{shout out to my Russian, Malaysian & German friends....  oh and the mouse in my pocket}

i feel like a fish out of water,  AGAIN
- really always have -

which explains why I have been drawn to the particular men/people/science/cultures/literature/music/philosophies that I am
which are not all that "american,"all of my life.
So I guess I should not be surprised about my mind set of today...
or the last several for that matter..... .... ....

CeCe in The Gingerbread Cookie Caper...

i think it would be prudent of me to sign off and revisit this tomorrow when i am less drunk and HIGH off of Gingerbread cookies, that I made because I realized my blog was going nowhere ...

so i leave you with this...

over and out