awkward...

it is beyond fitting that it is valentine's day of all days due to what I am about to blog...

neighborhood crush update: okay first bit of info I had been running into him almost everyday there for a while...both of us enjoying our encounters & me never seeing a female friend{s} but this weekend it was clear he was out of town so I was pretty sure my handsome neighborhood crush had a girl friend then but ....tonight while walking the dog I got to see her and see the relief on his handsome face that he appreciated me .... just walking my dog...Boys.
too funny...
he is lucky I could read that she was not the sharing type...
our next encounter sans girlfriend should be interesting...I'll keep you posted {hence the title of tonight's Blog...}

prepare yourself for a not so smooth transition...nor is it very Valentinesy~ and yes I KNOW that is not a word..

But the other thing that is fu*king with my head this evening{s}...

I Need to find New Job~ ARghhgghhggggghhhhh...
I hate looking for a  job but now that I have moved & gotten settled in...I need to find another partime job or a Good full time job...my present job, until summer {May} is more than partime these days...so much so, after I pay my Bill ~bills... I literally run out of food at times and or have to ration the cheese and bread so that I have enough to get me to the next paycheck or check from my jewelry but it makes buying new material to make things for the boutique but sometimes she pays me forward which is super cool of her ...I am lucky like that ~ i seem to have some really good friends...now THAT makes me smile.
anyway
 before I drone on & on... the long and the short of it IS: I NEED to find another Job!
and the sooner the BETTER

and to leave tonight on a good note for me...I am on target to be bikini ready ....my favorite bikini ready {you know what I'm talking about ladies...}by the 1st of March ~ which makes neighborhood crush easier to swallow... and makes it easier to fit into my interview clothes...now mind you the rationing of food is ironically "helping" to get me favorite bikini ready but it is ALSO due to the fact that I am keeping up with my exercises {and also cannot afford as much booze & other goodies I would normally par take in...}
But this much I do know ~ when I do get to go out with my friends & enjoy myself, I DO find myself appreciating it more these days...{not to mention I'm a cheap date* let me be specific... for instance, I get drunk faster & can't each much at one sitting!! } guess it is a win / win for everyone!!
the circle of single dating life...
c'est la vie

oh and ...

HAPPY Valentine's DAY y'all

SMILES!!!!!