I felt early on I wasn't going to be a respectable citizen. ~ Cormac McCarthy

“You’re getting older, and you’ll see that life isn’t like your fairy tales. The world is a cruel place. And you’ll learn that, even if it hurts. Magic does not exist. Not for you, me, or anyone else.”
                                                                                 ~ Pan’s Labyrinth

...but I completely understand the urge to try.