giving up my gun ...

That was mighty long nap, one might say

so many blanks to fill in....

i guess its only logical to start with the quote on the "hubris/insanity/vertigo" of being YOUNG {and in love}...

{so hard to talk about this subject & NOT sound bitter but here goes...}

When you are young you feel invincible {especially when injected with a NEW love} you pad your resume of sorts... You promise {the moon & stars if you are lucky}, completely meaning it in the moment, but some of these dreams cannot possibly be made real... you don't know it at the time and even if you did you'd probably still ignore any flags, turning any & all flaws found into beauty marks that transforms that person into someone just for Vous...{Je ne le sais car ce sont ces grains de beauté & le battement de son cœur que je repose ma tête sur sa poitrine à chaque nite, ivre moi ... m'a fait réfléchir et faire l'impensable!}

But that is the past och detta är framtiden, för nu ...  

I no longer want to climb {or TAME} Mt Everest {as I lost too much on my last attempt, really my only true attempt at such a climb}. But after time, reflection & many doses of the reality of the real you, tugs at my soul and some how i know ~ right now, all is as it should be.  

here isn't here yet so all is mailable, in flux as it were

I guess I am still willing to hang in there and see if there is another new, inspiring, meaty adventure in store for me, {if the gods give me the courage} 

 

I have recently found that I still enjoy a climb and my soul just needed to ...

gotta go to bed, must be a thinking human tomorrow...