~ 1st I saw off an old friend, a sister really {i can truly call her that & mean it because we fought like I have seen sisters fight} I do not have one of my own by blood & I almost pride myself on the fact that my blood brother & I are diametric opposites {and have been our entire lives...{which explains my life long pursuit to find my adoption papers so I could explain this and ohh so many other things about my family}. I never really wanted a sister, I did not want to share my clothes or shoes with anyone. Don't get it twisted, I have always been a Girl, I just have not expressed it in a Girly fashion....
i digress {as usual}...
The long and the short, my sister Shira left for a "Big Girl Job" in N.C. @ Duke University to be exact. I am beyond impressed with her on many levels... She and I had lost contact for a while ~ oddly when i moved to this god for saken state, but she recently contacted me, mainly to say good bye... it was tres sweet of her to do so { I know it was hard for her to do what she did} and I cannot express how much she touched me in saying goodbye!!!
I will and already do miss her but so wish her the VERY BEST on what I know will be a fun & really exciting new life back East. It takes a lot of courage to pack up your shit and move across the country {actually sounds exciting to me but I always envy those you get to leave this place I need to just relax as I will also be leaving here as soon as I can as well} I am just uber happy that I we were able to say goodbye with smiles on our faces & open hearts ~ really the only way to see a loved one off into unknown waters
~ stress has kicked in about moving and frankly ~ staying... i know i know it is the right thing to do for right now as the job market is beyond shitty, car is not in the best of conditions & i do not need it breaking down the instant I got back home, have dog now little yes but dog none the less plus chocolate & it has limited my being able to move into certain situation back in Cali... before work was ending, I was having to move and it just seemed the energy was propelling me in one direction sooner rather than later but recently with getting the extension at work & the request of more of my jewelery i think I am here until summer...ahhhh summer at home i cannot tell you how much I miss the sound of the waves, the birds, feeling the sun & the wind...the gold flecks in the sand ~ it's magical more times than it is not
~ speaking of jewelry...i am supposed to be cranking shit out. Tis' the season and all but I am beyond broke and feel no inspiration to make, create right now... {i seriously need to go to a museum, go on a hike or ont un peu de sexe vraiment bon!!! BON is the operative word here people...} to get some inspiration
~ speaking of dating ... yes I had another date Friday night & ladies ~ Tip: Friday's are good days to go on dates because you can - if the date is not so great ~ like mine was... smile through out dinner {& his bullshit}, kindly explain that you had a long day at work so you really should get home early {alone}... though it took everything in me not to lean over the table to tell him I really had to leave so I wouldn't be late for my shift @ the Highlighter working the pole... but I held back}
he did not have much of a sense of humor {or personality for that matter} ~ he is like a lot of guys these days, as i was just explaining this after a few cocktails, to my girlfriend last nite "most* guys are like good movie trailers for really shitty movies"... I said to her with a whole lot of chatter from the "peanut gallery" {that would be the random people in a 6ft radius of us that were enjoying our drunken conversation...} as I went on to astutely explain... Ultimately most, of the HOT flashy ones, who seem to have all the bells & whistles {we think we are looking for}, they can usually do a few stunts or have a few special effects ... but really he turns out to be the same old shitty, Over hyped, over budget, shallow "B" grade movie... They give you all the good stuff upfront {usually without us asking} and then show themselves to have only 3 minutes of quality material...
*Disclaimer I said most as I am not a man hater... I actually love & quite enjoy a man's company, sense of humor, touch etc... but I do not {nor have i ever really} felt the need to have a man in my life for the sole purpose of having a man.
With that thought in mind, i think the picture below about sums up the way I felt about my date on Friday nite! The gods know I already learned this lesson... {oh boy did i ever with 8 yrs of my life...} hence my intolerance for said affliction... Just change the she to a He and the her to a HIS:
~ Sat: Phantogram ~ Enfoncer Orgasmique, ils ont été tout simplement incroyable!!!
We danced, and drank... then we danced some more and of course drank some more as well...
several times i just closed my eyes & let the music take me away, it was amazing...
GREAT music, Good friends... some weird encounters, but lost of laughing and even more dancing makes for really good times...
~ had my ego stroked ... by more {and at times more than i was comfortable with or would have liked...} in the end, I was able to leave with that wonderful feeling of sore thighs & feet, from dancing, a smile on my face & a ringing in my ears from great music and last but not least, my dignity in pocket {as the kids say...}!!!!
OOOOoooh, I almost forgot my brush with drama for the evening: as I almost had a Cops moment!!! {cut the music ...Bad Boy! Bad Boy! Watcha gonna do??!??!!...}
I had a cop follow me home most of the way from the club & of course i was sweating it... because I had been drinking at the club and even on a good day I could barely pass their cheesy tests...sober or not~ especially after 5+ hours of dancing and in 4 inch heels... i was so sure he was going to pull my ass over ... I saw my Lindsay Lohan Mug shot in my mind as he rode my ass... but he got side tracked, as live in an "active" area... about 4 blocks from my house ~ thank the gods!!!
so when I finally got home {after stopping to get a crispy taco as running from the pigs makes one very hungry....} my dog was over the moon to see me {a girls best friend besides her best friends...}
I could not sleep because my blood was still pumping from the drive home plus it was actually chilly for the 1st time all year {also could have possibly been the crispy taco i got after my run in with the law...} so I drew a wonderfully HOT bath, lit some candles, polished off the rest of the Pinot Grigio, listened to some more good music until the water got cold...
now I gotta get off this computer, finish my exercises and Go to Bed!!!
bonsoir pour l'instant
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