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sorry, you asked ...

{... but at least you didn't spend 8 years trying to fill a void that only he can fill first before he will ever really love someone the way he wants and professes to ... I too felt weak in the knees when I was in his arms & gaze, I too believed and turned out to be very wrong after paying a very high price, a few times ...}

I will say this for him, he is incredibly hard to get over but in the end you come to find the man you were in love with really does not exist but instead was an amalgamation of your fantasy, his reality and wishful thinking on both your parts