YOU have no idea who you are and frankly it is a bit strange how this thing has come full circle... But from the bottom of my heart {and deep recesses of my mind & soul} THANK YOU as you have unwittingly helped ME find the truth and ultimately resolution to a few things... major things ...
1st I should say, I am sorry for your pain ... but may I say, you are sooo much wiser & stronger than you know ...
You are wiser than your years and seem quite smart & witty
but most of all you have a true sparkle about you that really just makes a person smile ... {trust me i tried but I just could not hate}
until last night ... sitting in what became luke, warm water with a glass of wine in hand ... {ironic having a "eureka" moment in the bath - how Greek of me} ... realizing the true curse of being able to see the good/the amazing, in those that you Love(d) and yet when & if they do not live up to it, to the person that shines within THEM ... that no matter how much you tried, if THEY don't {for what ever reason they concoct} have self worth, you cannot give it to them nor is it your fault if they cannot obtain it through you ....
after chewing on & regurgitating that empathy all last night, I woke this morning with a different slant to my thoughts and by the time I was done with my work out this morning,
It was clear to me I had been in a cave, for longer than I'd like to admit, but as of that moment I was no longer "shackled" in the cave arguing with my shadow
... I also realized I had thanks in my heart with a need to express it but also having enough common sense to Not get involved where I do not belong...
I will keep my mouth shut and just blog my secret THANKS & true good vibes towards Vous....
I wish you could know how lucky you are to have not wasted/tormented yourself for years... for someone who ultimately, did not deserve what you shared/gave in the first place.
{... it is crazy how I thought I would have nothing to post on this bad boy ~ especially on a regular basis and here I am doing secret "shout-outs" ... too funny}
going out on a "date" a 1st date no less and boy oh boy, do I need to get my mind right -- never mind the outfit ... so I better get off this computer
Wish me Luck!!!!
Ciao!
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